I hate my pride,
And the way I’m never satisfied.
I love my drive to work and make,
Even if it’s just for motion’s sake.
I hate my reluctance to make a stand,
Even when the embers of my anger are fanned.
I respect my lack of complaints,
Though it doesn’t put me with the saints.
There are many sides to me,
Some I love, others a don’t want to see.
I have good traits and bad,
Some are happy, some are sad.
I try to maintain self respect,
Though I know I’ll never be perfect.
I wouldn’t describe myself as trendy.
Fitting in doesn’t really send me,
To a happy place.
I’d prefer mine to be the face,
Of one who is unique.
But I don’t really seek,
To stand out as well.
You see, I do not wish to sell,
Short my personality.
I want to be grounded in reality.
I won’t go out of my way to be unlike you.
If I happen to like the things you do too.
I want to be who I am and for me to be me.
Nothing more or less you see?
I doubt I’ll ever be see as an interesting study.
But at least I have the satisfaction of not being putty,
To be molded and sculpted by others expectations.
I don’t like to be forced by their relations,
To act this way or not that way.
It drains the fun from the entire day.
I’m such a none conformist I do as I want even if it’s what others do.
Im not going to waste time trying to be different or to act like you.
I don’t care what others see.
I just want to be like me.
Eight days shy of 24.
I they say a man’s legs are long enough to reach the floor.
I wonder am I a man yet?
I’m not sure I match that set.
Men always seem so sure,
While I’m sitting here wondering if there’s a cure,
For the fear and uncertainty I feel.
All I want to be is real.
I want to be sure of the steps I take.
And not question the decisions I make.
I don’t want to care about what nobodies think.
I’d like to have the guts to see a pretty girl and wink.
I’m tired of being a basket of nerves,
As I maneuver life’s curves.
I’m determined that one day,
I will be that way.
I will be Sanford with who I am.
I’ll always be me and not a sham.
I’ll have the courage to handle scary situations,
And act with confidence in all my relations.